I stole this from Miss Molly Marron. :) I liked it a lot and didn't want to forget it- so I'll write it in my blog.


'I’ll go out there and make my mistakes. I’ll fall down, get hurt, cry, laugh, love, and get back up. I’ll stand on the highest mountaintop and go into the deepest caverns, visit the moon and swim in outer space. I’ll let my imagination run wild... and let my spirit soar. Why? When my life flashes before my eyes, I want to have something worthwhile to watch, with plenty of love and laughter, good times and bad.'

xoxo,
Tracy

School.

How come it has to be soo hard? Classes are just starting to get SO in-depth, it's soo hard to take more than one at a time. I wish it WERE possible to take one class at a time so I could actually take my time to focus and understand every single little concept. It's just absolutely crazy how much there is to know about the human body- from my nutrition class AND in my exercise physiology class. I wish I could just understand it without having to study for somewhat of 10 hours a day! Sheesh! That's just insane!

Right now I have been studying for 3 hours just doing a study guide with 13 questions on it- and I'm not even done. It's for my exercise physiology lecture, I have an exam on Thursday. It's crazy too, the exam is T/F, MC & SHORT ANSWER. Yes short answer. AND for the T/F questions, we have to justify our answers. So basically you have to know your shit. I'm suuuper nervous about it. There is just SO MUCH information to know!


And to top it all off, I have another nutrition quiz tomorrow. I BOMBED the first one (it's ok because she drops 5). So after I finish this study guide, I have to start studying for that. AND we have an exam in Nutrition on Friday. Who gives a quiz the day before the exam? Strange. Whatever though.


I'm trying soo hard to do my best. Where is all the fun in college? Why am I genetically programmed to HAVE TO DO GOOD? How come I can't be okay with C's like everyone else?!?!!


Grrr.. this better pay off in the long run.


I want a boat. ASAP. Hahaha.

Okay, well back to studying about how much ATP you get from a 14 carbon fatty acid.. wooooo.

Here We Go Again by Demi Lovato

I throw all of your stuff away
I’m gonna clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
'Cause I'm so much better without you
But it’s just another pretty lie
'Cause I break down
Every time you come around
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
is so addictive
We're falling together
you'd think that by now I'd know
cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get hereunder my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
[ Demi Lovato Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together you’d think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again
And again, and again, and again, and again, and again
I threw all of your stuff away
And I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart
O oh o oh, o oh o oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together you'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go here we go again
Here we go again
Should have known better in trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again

Again (and again, and again)
Again (and again, and again)
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again
And again

i'm the only person who still updates their blog..

but anyways. just a random note..
don't you hate when you take a nap at like 5 pm and then it throws off the entire rest of your day? i feel like it's almost bedtime. and i feel like i was sleeping foreverrr but really i only slept for an hour. hahaha. whatever, that's all. :)

updaaaate.

it always hurts so bad to see someone change. i mean, with a breakup, i guess it's to be expected. and part of me is glad i see him being stupid like he is because it just means he isn't that person that i wanted to settle down with. i miss him and i miss us, but this is what is best for us. i need to and want to be a young college student, and i have been having fun going out and partying and meeting new friends, and i'm glad he can be himself finally and party and do whatever he wants. it still makes me sick to see how he is now.. but this is life and it's mine.


i'll find someone better and it will all work out.


someone who is actually crazy about me.

not have to wake up in the morning wondering if you still care...









ANYWAYS..


i'm all settled in back in flagstaff. :) i moved in on friday, and my mom came to help me. i hung out with her on friday night, and then i went out to a party with melissa. we found out that we are masters of distracting boys on the other team, haha we had a great time. yesterday was a long day, been getting to know my new roommates, who are both very cool girls and we all get along really well, which is nice. then last night me and melissa stayed home and watched a movie.. and scoped out the super hot guy who lives across the courtyard from us.. hahahhaa.


today is my roomie's birthday and we are goign to run errands and then go out to dinner.


i start classes tomorrow!! soo crazy..

it's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know its everything you want.

So much to look forward to..

and that is so true! I hope i never forget that. it drives me crazy that i have been so upset lately. I'm SO OVER MISSING HIM AND BEING SAD!!! okay, so i don't think i will stop missing him for a while because i loved him so deeply, but i do have faith that God is going to bring me someone WAY better who loves me more than he ever did, and it's going to completely sweep me off my feet.


so for now, i'm enjoying my last week at home. OMG i know right, how can i be going back to school already?!!? classes start next monday!!! i'm kind of excited-- i wanna do really well this semester!! my classes should be interesting. i'm hoping to make new friends this semester too- it's going to be great having so much freedom to do whatever i want!! :)



so so so much to look forward to.. :)


lots and lots of love..