Tuesday, June 16, 2009


Me & Brett are talking again. I won't tell details on here, it's personal. But we're talking again, and taking things very slow.. it's going smoothly so far. it's hard for both of us to take it slowly.. but i'm standing firm in that.

i'm working at baskin robbins again.. lame, i know. but i needed money and something to do with all my spare time.

life is good. :)

k bye

Monday, June 8, 2009

A Difference..

I'm not going to say I'm feeling better, because I'm not. But for some reason, starting yesterday, I feel some sort of relief from all this heartbreak stuff. I'm going to miss him forever. I loved him with my whole heart, and that being taken away won't be an easy thing to get over. I'm prepared to deal with that. But I'm also determined to do whatever it takes to begin to feel better. I'm looking at all the good things in my life. I'm trusting in God, that this is all in his plan for me, and as much as I don't like it personally, He is working in my life. <3

I loved you Brett Browne, with all my heart, and I always will.


Saturday, June 6, 2009


I feel like I'm not healing. Sometimes I think I'm doing better, but then I just realize that I'm not. I know it's over between us. I know that. But I don't understand WHY. What happened? We were so happy, I KNOW we were happy.. Nothing was wrong until that sad day.. I don't know why he didn't want to work things out.. Why he actually wanted this.. Why he wanted me OUT of his life.. I don't understand how he can be totally fine and not heartbroken and falling apart like I am. Does he miss me? Does he think of me like I think of him? I know it shouldn't matter, but it crosses my mind. I'm so ready to let go, but I feel like I can't, because I just don't GET it. I really don't. And I don't think I ever will.

I miss him. I miss US. With my whole heart. :(


Thursday, June 4, 2009

I wish

I could work out all the time. It keeps my mind off of everything that's going on. I think I feel a bad addiction coming on. But hey- I paid $100 for a membership for the summer, why not use it to my advantage?! YAY for getting in shape like I've wanted too forever.. now I just have to avoid seeing that one guy there..

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I hope he knows..

I hope he knows that I still love him. I hope he knows how much I miss him, and how much this kills me, every day it hurts still. I hope some part of him misses me too.. :(