Wednesday, September 24, 2008

so true.

dumb bitches.

Well you're a real hot cookie with your new hairdo
Your high heel boots and your credit card
Long legs and a mini skirt
Yeah you know what works and you work it hard
You smile like such a lady, innocent and sweet
You drive the men folk crazy, but any girl can see
You're just a

I know what you're doin'
You think you're gonna ruin what I got, but you're not
Yeah you little go getter
I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker

I'm sure you waited for a long, long time
To find a man like mine
But honey you're too late
So before you go and make your move
Maybe me and you should get a few things straight
There's two ways we can do this
I'll let you decide
You can take it somewhere else
Or we can take it outside, you little

I know what you're doin'
You think you're gonna ruin what I got, but you're not
Yeah you little go getter
I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker

Now honey, I'm a Christian, but if you keep it up
I'm-a gonna go to kickin' your pretty little butt
Is that clear enough, yeah, you little

I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker

Yeah you're just a homewrecker
A homewrecker

Monday, September 22, 2008

nights like tonight...

make it all so worth it.
for once i feel like im actually with someone
who finally, actually means it.
i love him and he loves me! YAY its so amazinggg
ANYWAYS. enough mooshy mooshy.

today was unrealistically good..
for the way i woke up and expected it to be, which was crappy. haha.

so. :) i woke up and went to class, statistics was boring as alwaysss and chemistry was no different.. but at the end of chem we got our tests back from last wednesday.. and GUESS who got a 102%?!?!?! YES ME!!!!!!!! omggg the highest score in the class of like 200 people.. im not even kidding!!!!! ahhhhhhh... so that was a GREAT start to the whole dayyy :) then i basically ran back to my room.. and went straight to work.. and then back to my room at like 5:30 to start watching the charger game.. then went to my meeting with the RHD from back the first weekend of school when i got in trouble.. and she was REALLY nice which i wasnt expecting :) so that went wellll.. and then came back to the end of the charger game which they FINALLY won without the refs sucking!!!! yayyy they deserve it hahaha. then my fantastic boyfriend called and we talked about him coming here to visit and im SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! :)

omggggggg good life... :)

love yalll. how goes it?

Sunday, September 21, 2008


i just, i have so much on my mind. and i have nothing i can say.

i miss home.
my life is amazing.
but i feel like..
like it could be so much more.
i guess it's not time for my life to start yet.
but i'm dying to get to know his family..
to make my place..
for him to come hang out with mine..
maybe i'm just moving too fast..
but i feel ready.
i feel like i'm finally in love.

...and i'm 500 miles away.
it's hard.
it's soo... hard.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I figured it out. Why I've been so happy lately.. It's because I WANT to be. :) And so, I am. there, simple as that. :)

minus the fact that i have three tests this week.
oh well, one down,
two to go....
and lots more classes
and starting work this week..

Monday, September 15, 2008

more quoting myself..

"arizona is pretty good, a LOT better than last year. it's still no san diego, and it's definitely not home, and it's hard being away from my best friends and my boyfriend but it's all part of life and stuff so i'm having fun while i'm here. :-)" 8.28.08.


this weekend was good, really good.

friday consisted of
dinner at collins irish pub
three apple martinis :)
pregaming with friends
mad i to dance with them
a nice walk back to campus
and bed. :)

saturday was just as good.
getting up at like 11
staying in bed until like 4
meeting new people
going to a party
being sober
cops coming
hanging out in my car
playing cards in a new friends room
watching tv in the gabaldon game room,
watching pineapple express
bed. :)

and sunday.. well sunday..
slept in until noon
got up and went to buffalo wild wings to watch the charger game
watched the chargers get ripped off.
gym time
dinner time with melissa and dom
cleaning our room..
spice world
and bed. :)

..good weekend.
now i'm hoping for a good week.
for me and for you. :)

Friday, September 12, 2008


why stress out about this right now? it's a silly relationship. sure i love him, i really do. but if it's meant to be, then it will be, and it will get better. i hope it does. but i'm not going to get all stressed out and bummed out over it right now. it's for fun right now, not for forever. again.. if it's meant to be, it will be. and if it's not, it would seem silly later in my life that i actually cried over this. so, that's that. my life is mine, and i'm happy.


Thursday, September 11, 2008

I write in here too much..

I wrote this before I left for school. I read it again today, and remembered what I'm here in Arizona for, and it helped me to feel better, after having a tough morning talking to my boyfriend. Well, here it is.

"As I sit here and think about how bummed I am to go back to school, I realize that it is mostly because I am going to miss my friends and my boyfriend and my family. But then, when I think about it, this is my life, and I need to solidify it on my own before including others in on my life-changing decisions. So when I think about how I wish I could just stay home to make my life start here, so I can be more committed to my boyfriend, or anything else, I just need to realize that we both made the promise to focus on what needs to be focused on, and for me, that is going to school in Arizona, at least for this year. Then, after that, we will see where we stand, and make decisions when the time comes to make them. But overall, I just have to realize that Arizona is a choice that I made, and I need to go back to school without the negative attitude, and try my hardest to be happy and make some serious progress in my own life before combining that with the lives of others, no matter how much I love them.." (Aug. 13, 2008)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008


Motivation..maybe..? :(
so stinkin depressing.
i feel like throwing up all the food i have everrr eaten.
it's so hard to eat healthy at college =/
i need to go to the grocery store.
and buy fruit.
and ziplock baggies.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008


Colleges seriously find ANY way possible to make its students give them money. It's rather disgusting, they already get SO much money out of donations.. not to mention that tuition is ridiculous. Disgusting. Where does the $25 late fee for signing up for a class two weeks into the semester go.. huh? What are they using that money for? Ugh. Whatever. I know what I WON'T be using it for.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Feeling bad..

... for my post earlier. I have this friend Spencer, he works in Parking Services. :-) He is such a nice guy he totally voided my parking ticket for me!! It's nice having connections ;-) Haha! I kinda feel like a brat now being rude about the people who work there.. Spencer is cool. Ha. The rest of them can suuuck it. Anyhow, dinner time. Tryin' to keep it as real as I can in lame Flagstaff haha.


Ranting & Raving.

So this weekend in Tucson was.. interesting. Let's just get started on what the title of this blog is all about. Friday night I don't even remember what we did, to be honest because Saturday night was so absolutely out of control. I won't go into details, because I don't really think it's my place to discuss other people's drama for everyone to know, but here we go. So, at about 8ish we are finally ready to go out and stuff.. I'm DD, so I'm not drinking with the rest of the girls.. (which I totally don't even mind at all, don't get me wrong..). So we're driving around.. which is already kinda sketchy for me because I don't live in Tucson, so I'm basically just taking directions from these goofy drunk girls.. We end up at this one guy's house, and a fight may or may not have broken out.. with some of the girls that I'm with. So I'm sitting in the car waiting for them for what seems like forever, already bumming out and upset because I'm alone.. worrying about them like the worrier that I am, and I have no one to talk to, no one to text or anything because I'm too shaken up. Sooo.. we end up driving away from there after a lot of shit went down, and then the girl in the front seat of the car I'm driving (which is Melissa's Blazer, by the way..) and the girl in the backseat start arguing like nooo freakin other and eventually start to freaking fight. By this time I'm already freaking out because the girl in the back was basically SCREAMING in my ear.. and I pull over and blah blah blah. It was a lot more dramatic than it's coming out on this post.. but whatever. It was a sketchy night for me, and anyone who knows me knows that I NEVER put myself into situations like that, and now I never will again.. I know so much better, I just don't want to deal with scary mean drunk people anymore. :( (and melissa if you read this don't feel bad i had so much fun and none of this is your fault.. looove you roomie!)

Anyways. So we got back to Flagstaff at like 12:30 last night.. SO LATE! We thought that The Hills would be on at 7:30, so we stayed late to watch it in Tucson, turns out it WASN'T on then.. because of the stupid VMAs.. which we missed Britney's preformance too.. that I was really looking forward to.. But I'm sure I'll find it online. Anyways, this is all leading somewhere I promise.. hahaha. So I'm already SUPER tired today because I didn't go to sleep until about 1:30.. and it takes me forever to fall asleep at night.. so I go to my classes on North campus this morning.. then when I walk (run) out to my car in the parking lot I find a freaking PARKING TICKET. Ughhh!!! Like wow, how convienent. So that just makes me mad right off the bat. Then, I'm looking at it.. and it's for $50!!! What the hell!!! Last semester I got a parking ticket and it was only $30.. why the hell did they feel the need to raise the price of a parking ticket? What is that money even used for anyways? To pay the people who work at parking services? Well they all SUCK and they should feel seriously guilty. I'm also pissed because I DON'T have the money to pay for the ticket. Like, I'm looking for a job right now.. but that's SO hard to do in a college town because I'm just like EVERY other starving college student that needs something for an income.. So basically I'm screwed. Not onlyyyy because I have to pay for the stupid parking ticket.. but because now I don't know how the hell I'm EVER going to get to my anthropology class in time. My first two classes on Monday & Wednesday are on North campus, and my Anthro class is all the way on the other side of campus.. which would take me at least 25 minutes to walk.. and I only have 20 to do it in. What the hell am I supposed to do?! The other thing that pisses me off is that the school has been CLOSING parking lots. Like are you serious?!?!?! Yeah, they are CLOSING parking lots to put in pretty pretty grass. Like you have to be kidding me I'm so mad!!! I understand that it's Flagstaff and you want it to be pretty. But isn't the whole point of a Univeristy to LEARN from?! How do they expect me to do that if I can't make it to my classes on time. No, don't tell me to get a bike. I can't freaking afford one, ok?

Ughhhhhh. Ok. Homework, then gym time to work out my frustration. Hope you all are having a fantastic start to your week.. I really really do.

If you're a friend from home,
pleeease call me. I miss you all SO much!!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Off to Tucson..

It might be a bad decision, but whatever. I should stay in Flagstaff and tackle the tons of homework I have, and look for a job, but I guess that it can wait. I would rather not stay behind and be sad and lonely haha. So off I go to Tucson with Melissa. We'll see how it all goes next week. For now, I'm excited, this weekend will be fun!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

I love Thursdays!

Why do I love Thursdays, you're probably asking yourself.. Because I JUST woke up!! How stinkin' awesome is that?! Hahaha. It's pretty great. And I only have one class and it's not until 2:20, and I actually LIKE the class! :-) It's my Anatomy & Physiology lecture, and it's a good thing I like it because it's basically my major haha. It makes me feel pretty comfortable about my future that I actually like the stuff I'm studying and will actually need for the rest of my liiife.. :)

Anyways? Know what else I love?! My roommate!! Hahaha. Seriously though, this year is SO much better than lastttt!! Last night we watched Jon & Kate Plus 8 before we went to sleep, and then turned it off because we were sooo tired and just wanted to sleep... haha well obviously not. We started talking about the most random shit! Hahaha.. I think it started off with me bringing up the question about like.. wondering if we had twins somewhere else in the world that like we just don't know about... but do real twins have twins? or is THEIR twin the only twin they have? hahaha.. then we talked about how WEIRD cell phones are and how they work.. and how it's actually REALLY scary to fly in airplanes.. hahaha on and on with the most RANDOM stuff.. it was so funny and we were cracking up all night.. i bet you we didn't go to bed until like 1 AM!! Crazy!! (well for her.. since she had class this morning.. i just slept hahah)

Anyways, I should go start getting ready for the day, do some things aroudn here, maybe some homework, then go to class.. then tonight I think we're going to go to dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings! Yessss I am SO excited that place is DELICIOUS!!! :-) mmm.. Be jealous!!!

Bye Lovers. :)

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Today has been fine. I woke up and got out of bed, decided I was WAY too tired to actually go to my statistics class, so I argued with myself about the pros and cons of going.. and decided that since I already have all the notes, and I can barely understand the teacher when he talks anyways (he has a hardcore chinese accent).. I should just go back to bed. So, I did. Then I got up and went to my chemistry class, took the quiz, which I think I actually did decent on, which is surprising due to the small amount of studying I did & how much I hate chemistry.. and then came back to the room because my anthropology class was cancelled.. then me & Melissa went and got lunch at the union and I went and bought some books that I still needed, then we came back and I slept for a little bit before I had to get up and go to my chemistry lab. I'm so glad that I don't dread that class anymore. Last year was so terrible, I hated that class more than anything. Yes it's still my least favorite class, but working with dangerous chemicals that could potentially burn my skin off, doesn't really bother me anymore, it's just something I do. hahaha. And I potentially planned on going to the rec center right after lab, but was hungry, so I grabbed a sandwich (yum!) that I actually have yet to eat. My body seems to be pretty mad at me for going so crazy this last week. It's crazy, I feel like I'm growing up SO much.. so many things I have to take care of on my own for once, not having someone to do them for me.. hahaha.. sounds like I'm a spoiled brat, and I guess I kind of am, but whatever, I'm growing up now. :)

Ok. I'll probably add more to this later, but I'm hungry!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

i really don't want to be one of those girlfriends that does SO much and is so obviously crazy about the guy she is with...

when her boyfriends friends don't even know she's his girlfriend...


post four in two days. :)

hello again. <--- that makes it seem like im kinda in a good mood huh? WELL I'M DEFINITELY NOT!!! ahhh goodness gracious i am going crazy! my life is seriously like trying to hunt me down and kill me or something!!...or at least make me start acting more grown up and responsible..

nothinggg is going right today!! i need two books to read two chapters out of tomorrow.. and my mom put my last check from baskin in my bank account, but it still hasn't cleared so granted i can't buy the books, so i will be behind in class. PLUS i have been in contact with my doctor for about a week now deciding whether or not she would give me my prescription, and today i get a call from her little nurse-man telling me that NO she won't give it to me unless i come in for an appointment.. which OBVIOUSLY i can't easily do because i'm not freaking at home.. like come on.. you're annoying. errrrr so now i'm like a week off on my meds and its going to take at LEAST a few more days until i can figure out another way to get them.. freaking... ugh!!!!!!

so needless to say i am super stressed out and pissed off and not a happy tracy today. so i'm going to go eat some pasta for dinner and then use those carbs to hopefully have a really good workout tonight. then do homework.. studying for chemistry which obviously won't make me happy either because CHEMISTRY SUCKS!!!!!!

okay enough complaining.
life is good, nonetheless.

Monday, September 1, 2008

words that hold so much hope..

that keep me holding on...

"i swear i love you tracy. i want us to make it i know we can."

Hello againn!! :) so today turned out a lot a lot better than it started. i gave up on fixing things with the boy, so i just took some time to myself and stopped talking to him. sounds harsh, i'm sure haha. but sometimes i just need to clear my mind and do things that i like to do! so i took a shower, took a nice long nap, and then got up and took myself to the gym.. but before that i called my mommy and finally got to catch up with her! i miss her so so much!! we talked for about 20 minutes and about basically everything in the whooole wide world. so that was nice :) but then i came back in suuuch a better mood, probably because Einstien was finally open again after being closed all weekend! so i went to get me a bagel and a coffee (which i still need to eat!) and melissa gave me a bunch of her good music to put on my computer, so that's super cool.. and now i'm doing homework.. and if you know me, you know that i actually like doing homework, so it's basically putting me in a good mood, i love feeling productive! haha. :) and then in about 40 minutes.. the best TV night of the week starts!! i'm so excited!!..Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, and then the Hills! Yesssss... :)

okay, so that's that..

by the way, does anyone know of any good diet plans for a college student? because i really would like to be on a good diet but it's so hard only having certain food choices on campus... so if you know of anything, tell me! :-) k thaaanks.

First Post.

Heyyy.. well welcome to my blog. Haha, I've never really done this before, so it should be interesting. Anyhow, let me update you all.

I moved back to Flagstaff about a week and a half ago.. It started off really good, but I can tell I'm already getting really homesick. It's always so hard to leave my family and my friends and now you throw a boyfriend in there, and I just don't really know what to do with myself sometimes. There isn't much to do in Flag.. so a lot of times I find myself just going to sleep so that I'm not bored or lonely.

Anyways, I don't feel like I have much to say right now. I just woke up from a nap and I think I'm about to head to the gym right now, just for something to do. Then do laundry and homework. Tonight is Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, AND The Hills. :) Sooo that should be fun. :-)