Monday, April 27, 2009

Happiness :)

It's awesome. I have never been more in love than I am lately. I know it's so cheesy, and usually that stuff makes me laugh.. but HE'S AMAZING!!! It's been one hell of a year, with crazy highs and crazy lows.. but I'm so so happy I gave him that one last chance.. these last few months have been nothing but love, I am the LUCKIEST girl ever!!! :)

On Wednesday I got a dozen long-stem red roses sent to my dorm, sooo sso so sweet!! and then I spent this weekend with him and he just makes me the happiest girl. even our stupid little arguments only last for like 2 minutes then he is making me smile again :) i love love love it!!! oh and by the way i came home with yet another piece of tiffanys jewelry :) AH!!!!!! I hate that he does that!!! he surprises me and makes me so so so so so so happy..

no seriously, i am theeeee luckiest girl ever!!!

just thought i would share with the world :)

Friday, April 17, 2009


I need to take my nails off. I'm so sick of them. I don't know why I get them done anymore- as much as I like them, it's such a huge waste of money.. like seriously $500 a year if you get them done every month.. I would rather use that money for something else for sure.

I need to get my hair done- it looks like crap right now.. but there's not much I can do about that since my hairdresser is in San Diego, and I won't be there for another 3 weeks.. (going to school out of state is such an inconvenience)!!

I need to get my eyebrows waxed.. they look like crap too! Oh well, I can always resort to tweezing them.. which i HATE doing.

Most of all, I NEED TO GET BETTER! I am sick right now and it's soo annoying!! I just don't want to be sick- it means I had to stop my working out routine I was on, I have to just lay around and let myself get better- which is SO annoying because I have a lot of things to get done before next weekend..

By The way,,,, NEXT WEEKEND IS STAGECOACH!! I get to see my loverbutt and I'm soooo excited!! Just as excited as I am to see my mommy && my bestie!!!!!!!! yay :)

k bye, hope you all are doing well!!!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

life's good

I run my life..
or is it running me?
Run from my past,
I run too fast..
or too slow it seems..

LOVE this song.
LOVE this part.
So freaking true.
I feel like I can't keep up with my life!!
But it seems like it's flying by..
can't wait for summer,
i hope it's pretty chill...

♥ lots of river trips..
lots of beach time..
hopefully a fun job with kids :)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Home is where the heart is..

I wish that my weekends didn't suck so much. I wish I had real friends who invited me places, and wanted to hang out. I wish I didn't have to sit alone all day every day. I wish I could go home and at least hang out with my parents, or go hang out with my sister. Or even go somewhere like the beach, to hang out by myself. I wish I felt like I belonged. I don't feel like I belong here. When I go into stores, when I go into restaurants, I don't feel at home. When I'm in San Diego, everyone is so friendly, you feel like a part of the community. That's what I miss. I feel like I'm alone here. Hell, I AM alone here. I'll sit here today and I'll do homework, and study, alone. Because no one will bother to invite me anywhere, no friend wants to go have lunch with me, I have made no friends who honestly care about me, no one that I would have fun with if I were to hang out with them. I wish I had the time to leave Flagstaff on the weekends, to go home, or even down to Phoenix to hang out with people who actually care about me.

Did I bring this upon myself?
What did I do?